lots of self-hate lately, lots of feeling weak and doubting myself and my place here and my friends, lots of letting myself get to me (as soon as i fail at anything, no matter what, i start giving up/guilting the shit out myself for giving up it is not super fun)
but this week i’m going to try to just breathe easy, good vibes, not take everything too seriously, remember that it is just the beginning of the semester and i have a lot to learn, positive thinking, not letting myself kill me, and remembering to take my prozac!!11!!!!
i need to start taking large format photos but i’m scared to lug this giant camera around alone and i don’t really have any friends at saic that are photo majors so no one wants to come with me/let me take their photo
somebody love me and i’ll love you back with a giant huge negative of ur face or whatever